Bologna

Today I applied for the last section of Uniform CPA Examination.

(Doesn't that sound important?)

It is.
Sort of.

All along, I've had this notion that after I become a CPA, things will change.
Change like in a drastically trivial way.
I'll be a part of a professional society of professional professionals.
I'll be that much more "marketable" to employers and/or clients.
I may even make more money.
It will allow me to do what I really want to do (which is what exactly!?!?)!

And I'll have fancy letters behind my name.

But as the date draws nigh, I begin to feel that nothing will change.
What is it that I really want to do? Tax preparation? Am I not doing that already?
Will I be no more important than I am right now?
And if "doing what I want to do" is what I think it is, that will take YEARS to accomplish.

(I wanted a quick fix.)

Motivation = lost.

And I guess I've been fooling myself into thinking it'd be worth it.
Because somehow certification = success?
And now I feel this annoying urge to get certified in everything.
Financial planning. Quickbooks Pro. Management accounting.
WHY CAN'T I BE NORMAL?!?!??

And maybe I'll be glad that I "got it out of the way" while I was "still in school".
And maybe in the future, it will really make a difference as far as my opportunities.
And maybe one day, I'll know exactly what I want to do and how to do it.
And maybe it will all be worth it one day.

Better be.

I'm going to go write a book,
TWS